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katoptronophilia, part one
by himukalt

'she got up and brought a long mirror towards the window. she stood it on the floor against a chair. when she sat down in front of it on the rug and, facing it, slowly opened her legs. the sight was enchanting. the skin was flawless, the vulva, roseate and full. she thought it was like the gum plant leaf with its secret milk that the pressure of the finger could bring out, the odorous moisture that came like the moisture of the sea shells. so was venus born of the sea with this little kernel of salty honey in her, which only caresses could bring out of the hidden recesses of her body.' - anais nin / delta of venus

anais nin is describing the fetish of katoptronopholia, where the mirror becomes the focal point for sexual activity. for anyone who has a passing understanding of himukalt, it is probably not a surprise to anyone that i record a lot of my sexual activity, with or without a partner. in recording myself masturbating in front of a mirror and describing what i see and what i do, i found it very interesting that i had made an audio recording of a very visual fetish. was the fetish disrupted by the transition from one avenue of perception to another, or did it heighten it? might the listener then put herself in my situation, if she were to listen to this? would i put myself in another woman's place, if i were to hear her recording?

to take these recordings and work them into noise, into electronics, that furthers the distance from the woman enjoying herself, and then an audience gets involved. they may be approaching the material in any number of contexts. i am aware that a lot of people come to my work for the tits and ass, but i am also aware that a lot of women come to my work because they hear themselves in what i do. or at least that's what i'm told. i firmly believe that my orgasm is the most honest, personal expression i can make, and i have no shame in this. but at the same time, i am very aware that this is not for everyone.

abstracting my own voice, my own sexual activity with noises has a number of possible meanings. for myself, it provides distance, almost like clairvoyance. there is beauty. there is terror. there is that which somebody cannot possess, even though i am revealing a part of it. there is the other. all of these feel uncomfortably real to me .

so i approached friends, professionals, fans. with caution and with discretion. the katoptronophilia series was sourced from recordings that were made consensually and in the full awareness of what himukalt is all about. there will be 4 cassettes in this series to be released soon. heavy electronics, sex/death industrial, psychic damage.

this is the first cassette. the contributors include jhane p. (false maria) and elias crescent. - ester kärkkäinen / himukalt

released October 31, 2025

vocals on track one by jhane p.
vocals on track two by elias crescent
mastered by grant richardson

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